“To break person’s heart is simple,
first give hopes and destroy it”. That quote is right. Love is feeling when you
meet a person, make contact and finally you will feel comfortable with that
person. Whenever you fall in love, it often creates a huge energy inside your
mind, heart and life called ‘HOPE’ which has potential to change your mood,
personality, or even your life. Unfortunately, the love in real life will not
always meet happy ending like in fairytales because the more love you feel, the
more hopes you get and once those hopes destroyed, the pain you take will know
no limit. That was my feeling when I tried to write a love story in a blank
paper called my life. The story was so good until I realize how fail the story
was.
The story started in a rainy day
when I looking for a book in a bookstore. I finally found the book at the
corner of store. There was two books left and then I took one book rapidly.
When I took the book, a smooth hand took another one. It was a girl, she asked
me about the book to ensure the title. When I turned my face, I saw a young
beautiful girl with white smooth complexion and long hair stands in front of
me. She asked many things to me about that book. I learned that she loved to
read the book like I did. Before she went home, we gave our phone number to
each other and I knew, her name was Wanda. It was the beginning of the storm.
I felt like found a big oasis in the
desert. She texted me every day, there was no day without her messages. She
even asked my condition, my daily life my school, etc. She was fulfill the
emptiness in my life when we were together. I like her welcome character, she
told me everything about her family, hobbies, and more. It makes me think I was
so valuable to her. The time passed, we had been together for one month. Slow
but sure I started realized that I loved her.
Day by day we were getting closer
and closer. The more day passed, the more hopes I got. Later on I encourage
myself to throw my ‘Jomblo’ status and make her to become my girlfriend. Yes, I
planned to state my love to her so I prepared everything that I might be need
like flower, song, poet everything as long as it helped my plan. I invited her
to get dinner and she responded my invitation excitedly. The night finally
came, we were getting dinner near beach where we usually spent our time
together. When I was ready to state my feeling, her last word ruined everything
I planned. She said that she was accepted other guy as her boyfriend and more,
she said that she said I just a figure of brother to her, not more. It felt
like stroke by thunder storm in a sunny day which made me cannot say anything.
I wanted to say ‘ I LOVE YOU’ to her but I chose not to. It would hurt her
feeling and mine as well.
Indeed, this unsuccessful love story
gave me so much pain. I never imagine that she just treat me as her brother, I
got ‘Friend Zoned’ without I realized it. I just keep my feeling to her just
for avoiding me from hurting her feeling.